this world is pain and suffering

No wonder we try to escape, if you have got this shit sorted out, good on you! I should be full of hope for the future, there is a good chance something important will happen in March, but all I feel is pain and fear, I know I shouldn’t be in the future..

I tried to meditate, I went to the Gym, all the recomended things and I just don’t want to be here.

fukitol (thanks robin williams)

heal you fuck

I know this website seems self indulgent but it is a good way for me to organise or unjumble, rejumble and fuck everything off, unhelpful patterns.

absolute wanker

So you saw me mention going to the gym and meditating, it is my duty as a complete wanker to inform you of these things and leave it on the internet. Doing the right things, I need to shutup and take it, stop complaining everything is fine.

stoic fuckface

And now I need to inform you I read: “The Essential Marcus Aurelius” <(newly translated & introduced by Jacob Needleman & John P. Piazza)thanks Uncle Kerry> From somewhere I am jogging then join the fucking horrible scammy gym nearly everyday, I have given them my 30 days notice.

Again shutup and take it

At least you are getting something from centerlink. The loss of abuse-flab is nice, starting to feel a little human. I have not drunk the kool-aid and joined the terminally online broicism manoshpere cult. Those fucks can get fucked, dog cunt peices of shit, abusing a helpful guide to living. You know who you are, and you almost definately are not reading this whiny shit.

Fucking hell, this crap reads like a 19 year old emo onstruggling with life in 480p on liveJournal. liveJournal finally got video in 2015

needy

My Father cooked for me I feel loved, that is all I NEED, that and honesty…

all I caved ▶️

why would you

clam

buy more shit and fill the emptiness

I do feel empty, I am operating in the world like a human, but I have no connections, I am working on it though, like everything on this journey, time, time is essential.

you are all I need ▶️

I am the insect on fire

I know I need to be strong, but I am on fire.

I am still here.

<3